Saturday March 18, 2006

Well, john had his birthday on the 16th.i hope he had a good one.All he wanted was new socks.So I got him that and and a shirt and a cake.He got a $100 from his mom and grandmom.That's the least his mom can do for all the crap she puts him thru.i can't wait to move away from here!

I've been having a hard time with Sierra lately.I know-everyone says it's the age.But it's more than that.moms know  their kids.somethings up with her and I don't know what it is.She's just plain mean and rude and defiant.She's only decent when she gets what she wants and even then she's not always happy.I dunno.Maybe I'm just too used to her being so advanced that her being a "regular" 2 year old is shocking me, in a bad way.

i hope it doesn't last.

Can't wait for the warm(not hot) spring weather to kick in.Then we can be out more and not all bundled up.if anyone has ideas in mind to entertain a toddler that doesn't involve TV or movies,please let me know!

my two girls...Sierra and Brianna

Friday March 10, 2006

***forgot to paste March's entries, so here they are!***

Praise be to living God...I've got a home PC again!!!!I can't type too much right now due to the fact that I have to run out and pick up dinner...Chinese...yummy!!!

WE have a new puppy-Neo.We were told that he may part beagle...bull.Pit bull that is.As he's gotten bigger, he definitely has pit in him.He's a big dumb cutie pie!We gave Crystal away to a nice 92 yr old lady whose dog died.We had to give her away anyhow because she bit Sierra again, but apparently is an angel for her new owner.I would be too if i was a16 lb eating machine and was being fed rump roasts!

Well, I'll write more tonight when i get back,Peace out y'all!

Friday May 19, 2006

real fast, I get a site report that lets me know how often my page is viewed.I see I'm fairly popular, but no one ever leaves comments or eprops anymore.if you visit, please feedback or something so i know u care!

Friday May 19, 2006

I know, I know...it's been almost a month sice I've last written.I'm a terrible blogger, but actually I'm not.I've done so much better at blogging than keeping a paper diary!As you can guess, so much has happened since I last wrote.I read over my last entry and realized and i still have those days- more often than not.But I also have learned that no matter how crappy I feel,how much i complain(though I shouldn;t), or how frustrated I get with the little things around here-God still hears.

God has heard our cries.I could go into great detail but I'd rather get to the point.Mother's day i got the best gift of all(and no it wasn't a massage, although that would be a very close 2nd)Long story short, John finally told his family about our plans to move to WV and not only do they agree and support us but they also have agreed to co-sign for us so we can finance the home!

Needless to say, I'm ecstatic times 110!I've already begun wish lists at bed,bath and beyond and walmart(started them online,but I'm sure they still stand at the store).We have virtually nothing to put into our new home-the girls are the only ones with a complete room.i believe the house alreafy comes w/ a fridge and dishwasher- but no washer and dryer.We have no tables or chairs,lamps or livingroom furniture except for a sofa I got off of freecycle.Our bedroom consists of a bed- which from what i hear from most long time married couples is alot better than what most newlyweds start out with.

The other reason I haven't been on much is because I've started a MYspace site and I try to cross ref. that with this to avoid duplicate journals.

Well, I'm gonna go look at some more stuff online for the house- try to get an idea how we want this coordinated colorwise!(YAY!!)

Thursday April 20, 2006

I've not been feeling very good emotionally lately.Nothing seems to be going right.I love my babies to death but I just want time for me.It sounds so selfish out loud but I don't care- it's how I feel.I'm horribly lonely and sick to death of preschool entertainment.I envy working moms who ready themselves everyday to face the world of adults with mature conversation without a second thought of their kids or what's for dinner or the piling laundry.I want our own home so bad I feel like I'm quickly going mad.imiss my mother and fighting with my brother.

I'd love to wake to a full breakfast in bed, quiet and uninterrupted by singing puppets with accents.

After breakfast I'd take a leisurly shower for a half hour with scented candles and body wash.After the shower I'd be wrapped up in the softest white bathrobe and taken to a spa where a team of experts worked tirelessly on me-french mani's and pedi's;my hair straightened and brushed and styled.My make-up carefully applied I would then be taken to a dimly lit room where soft acoustic guitar music plays and a table awaits my tired and sore body.

I'm massaged and rubbed and relaxed for hours until I feel like the melted wax dripping from the vanilla and gardenias candles.After a wonderful afternoon I sit on a breezy veranda sipping iced kiwi strawberry juice and munching on a ligt tea sandwich and a salad. ........

I never get much further than this in my fantasy because at some point my day dreaming is interrupted by a horrific howl from the baby or Sierra exiting from her nap in tears for no reason.Which reminds me,i better go pump milk for the baby's cereal.

Wednesday April 12, 2006

I'm gonna try and forget about the house for today.Yesterday i was so driven and focused on trying to find the finances to buy the house and all, I was WAY OVERSTRESSED.Everything bothered me, i was tired and angry that nothing was working out and it was just a bad day.If people want to help, that would be huge.If GOd decides to do something in our favor, that'd be even more huge.But for today I'm gonna enjoy the gorgeous weather, get outside and make sure my girls are happy.

Today i began training with a lady named Nancy who will be teaching us how to train Neo.He's so smart and good.He already walks so well on a leash and knows "off" and "sit".i think when graduation comes, he's gonna be a very "good boy".

Later after lunch I'm gonna go walking with a new friend ,Ryan.It's so nice to finally have a friend nearby who loves the Lord and shares the same beliefs I do.Maybe we can end up babysitting each others girls and give the other a well deserved and long overdue break(she's a stay at home Momma too!)

Well, I hear the stirrings of a waking baby from naptime, so I'm gonna scat.God bless!

Tuesday April 11, 2006

I'M GONNA BE VERY BLUNT ABOUT THIS EXTREMELY PERSONAL ENTRY.MY FAMILY NEEDS MONEY TO MOVE.WE CANNOT LIVE IN NJ ANY LONGER-WE CAN'T AFFORD IT AND WE WILL BE LOSING THE HOUSE WE ARE VERY SOON.EVERYONE WHO READS MY BLOGS KNOWS I HAVE A HUSBAND AND 2 LITTLE GIRLS-AGES 2½ AND 6 MONTHS.

MY MOTHER IS IN THE PROCESS OF BUYING LAND IN WEST VIRGINA-SHE PAYS MONTHLY FOR IT AND IS GIVING HALF OF IT TO ME AND MY FAMILY.WE HAVE VERY LITTLE MONEY, BUT AFTER VISITING HER FOR A FEW DAYS SAW THE LAND AND FELL IN LOVE WITH IT.THE LAND IS FOR US TO PUT A HOUSE ON AND LIVE FREELY WITHOUT FEAR OF LOSING IT.IT IS OUR AMERICAN DREAM.

THIS IS WHERE THIS PAGE COMES IN.TO PUT THE HOUSE WE NEED ON THE LAND,A SEPTIC SYSTEM AND WELL, THE OTHER FEES SUCH AS SURVEYING,FENCING,A DRIVEWAY TO AVOID GETTING STUCK IN CLAY MUD ETC....WE NEED AT LEAST $70,000.WE CAN'T GET FINANCING BECAUSE WE HAVE NO CREDIT OR A CO-SIGNER.I'LL BE HONEST,I HATE THE IDEA OF A LOAN BECAUSE OF THE INTEREST FEES.WE NEED A BLESSING FROM GOD AND A GIFT FROM OTHERS.THERE'S NO WAY WE CAN DO THIS ALONE.

I AM NOT ABOVE CHARITY OR DONATIONS,GIFTS OF LOVE AND HOPE-WHATEVER YOU WANT TO CALL IT.PLEASE, IF YOU OR SOMEONE YOU KNOW CAN HELP IN ANYWAY I CAN BE REACHED VIA EMAIL AT PSALM119_25@YAHOO.COM.

 I CURRENTLY AM SELLING ITEMS TO TRY AND START A FUND FOR OUR HOME.ITEMS INCLUDE A WALL CLOCK NEVER OPENED RETAILING AT $130,A USED BABY TUB FOR $10,BABY GIRL CLOTHES(VARIOUS SIZES,STYLES AND COLORS),MY CLOTHES,A PORCELAIN SOUP SERVICE SET STILL IN THE BOX....IF YOU DON'T WANT TO DONATE BUT WOULD LIKE TO PURCHASE SOMETHING, PLEASE CONTACT ME.I NEED TO COLLECT MONEY ANYWAY I CAN(LEGALLY AND MORALLY) AND I HAVE A LOT TO OFFER.

THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS YOU IN ADVANCE.

PSALM 37:25